Of kareoke, sing along, some butt kicking and an old maid...

There was a kareoke singing contest downstairs (inter-department).. After crooning to a few tunes I went up to my own office to have some peace and quiet. My singing partner was an indian girl who sang like a bullet train giving speed singing a whole new meaning. The song was "Sandarkan pada kenangan" - Jamal Abdillah & Siti Sarah. It's been ages since I sang, used to be singing with the university band (like those kenduri kawin ones) in my studying days. Not yet AF material... though. Nope, I was not contesting.. merely like a guest artiste.. singing for the opening act, just to make the contestants feel at ease.

Been like 2 weeks since I had time to write anything in this blog. Time sure flies when u have tons of work.

Btw, I got a standing ovation over my debut drama. After some make-up and a wig, even I couldn't recognize myself. It was a lot of hard work.. but it was all worth it when my big boss came to me and congratulated me himself for the exceptional performance.

A few days after that, I got news that he had resigned. Also another collegue of mine had his contract terminated. Apparently, one of the board members for the company I work for, does not like him that much. It's a sad thing to see friend leaving the company since we are like a very tight knit community. I'm very sensitive about matters like this and cannot resist the melancolic feeling. One of the chief executive make a rude remark that I might be next. Well.. you little twat, we'll just see whose butt gonna be kicked next. Hehehehe.

Last weekend, the whole server cluster went down. Both Linux and Windows. I suspect it's either a virus or a DDOS attack. Wasted a whole weekend trying to fix the problem. I think I've made some sort of new record. I've rebuilt a whole new cluster of Windows 'o2/'03 and Redhat Linux in just under 3 hours (.. from scratch!!!).

Then I got an additional holiday on monday, so I drove to KL and went on a shopping spree. Having spent nearly RM 4000 on CD-Writers, Pen Drive, External HDD Casing, 120GB HDD, Wacom Pad, Digital Camcoder, etc... etc. It felt good spending but I need to put a stop to this habit coz it's not good for my wallet.

Being a bachelor is no fun either, especially when you are living alone. The house is too big on my own and I need a maid to do all the cleaning. I've tried to get a maid for myself but I live too far and no makciks wants to do it. Manmaid is out of the question, as if there is such a service in good o'le Malaysia. For now, I'll just have to clean everything by myself. Now.. where is that broomstick of mine.*chuckle*

Life in Show Business and Pink Eye !

Been really busy with work that I rarely have time to write here. To tell you the truth, I've just landed myself a small part in a local "broadway" style drama. Those historic themed B-rated stuff.. "Sumpah Orang Minyak".  Part stuntman.. part actor.. (i have only 2 lines.. hik! but a whole lot of fighting scene). Been rehearsing for it for the past 2 weeks.. opening end of this week. Wish me luck.
 
The BITCH had stopped pestering me since I relieved her of her duties. I would rather work my ass off than having a cunt assistant who thinks she is boss. She can go and wipe her fuckin pussy somewhere else.
 
Other than that, I've been keeping myself busy with "Queer as Folks" TV series. I'm an avid collector of the series which is very hard to find in Malaysia. Finally, I have the whole season 1 until 4 of the US version. Now I'm collecting the UK version. So everyday after work, I just lay and watch it. Seeing gays and lesbians lamenting their life and lust.
 
Last week was terrible. I got my left eye all swollen up. The doctor said it was a minor eye infection... a case of the "pink eye". But ever since I got beaten up (bashed) in a fight a few years back, my left eye would give me trouble once a while. Hurts like hell... nevertheless, it's residing so I can see better and I looked better too.. mind the puffyness.
 
I also got myself an original Wolfhampton Wanderers jersey bought from UK. It cost a bundle (try.. 40 pounds times 7 = MYR 280). But it's worth every cent. I'm not a footie fan, but since I saw a chub wearing it, it looks good on him.. so go figure! Yeah.. I'm one of those guys who's a sucker for a chub with good fashion statement. What looks good on him.. must look good on me too. (what a lame excuse.. hehehe).
 
Talking about fashion, I also wore a new tie to work today. Plain silver looks good on a black shirt. I look like Brian Kenny from "QAF". Suave ! And for casual outfit, I bought a really white sandals which can be seen a mile away. Talking about making a fashion statement. Don't know why I've been conscious about what I wear lately. Being a slob all my life, maybe it's time to change and feel good about what I wear. Now.. what I need is a pair of those cool Black Levis or Ice Blue Lee Cooper jeans in my wardrobe. Next paycheck perhaps.
 
A reader of this blog said that my postings are shows that I'm stressed out. Well, maybe because only when I'm stressed that I bent my frustration on writing. It's my kind of therapeutic way for relieving some of my anger. I promise to write more happy stuff here. My life has lots more happy times and I should make time to share it here.
 
So nuff said.. till next time

Bad Hair Day...

Since yesterday I slept the whole day. Feeling letargic. Still woke up late.. did some frantic morning laundry and off to work.

During breakfast my staff gave me the silent treatment. Oh hell.. i'm not in the mood for early morning chat either. Whether he knew it or not, I don't like him as well. Yesterday he did a complete fuck-up of the administration system. and I had to bail him out. Gawd! how I wish I had a competent technician. Why do I have to cover his butt everytime he fucked up. Why didn't the big boss see all this ? He was there beside me.

Also went for a photo session yesterday for the corporate magazine. I look good, especially with the small ribbon on my coat. Everybody commented.. it's cute.

Looked in the mirror and noticed that I didn't put on any hair cream. I looked horrible today. Anyway, I'm too depressed to do anything. I hope the guys that made an appointment to meet me didn't come. Left my cell phone at home, not intentionally but i think it's justified. Not in the mood to meet anybody right now. (UPDATE: my secretary just cancelled the appointment.. horreyyy!!)

My car's road tax & insurance needs to be renewed. Another RM 700 down the drain. Pay for the car loan RM 500. That's RM 1200 in all. Plus I got a summon for illegal parking RM 50.

Got a meeting this afternoon, see which malaysian state I have to cover this year. I hope it's the southern part or Kelantan. Hate the food.. loved the people.

I need something to cheer me up. Bored! Lonely! Tired!

Women are just bitches ! (Literally...)

My boss assigned me a new helper. Supposedly to help me with my chores and stuff. At first I liked her. She was nice and sweet. We could get along well together. WELL AT FIRST. Working with her was fun initially as she was up to par with me on certain levels. Unfortunately, she couldn't do hard labour & technical maintenance (and can't out-do my nitwit nincom poop technician). Well.. i can see that she can do Oracle DB.

After a while, she began to show her true colours. Becoming a real bitch. The only reason she had helped me because she wants to suck-up to the big boss. She's even got the boss to pay her extra due to her work.

Nowadays, any task I'd given her must get a seal of approval from the big boss. the BITCH. I've never been calculative with her. Well now since she has shown her true color.. I think I will show her mine too.

Now lets see who's hard-headed ! I've always kept myself on a professional level. But you got urself the wrong guy to be intimidated with girl. I thought I've made peace with my Anti-Women side.. but now I've declared WAR !!!

Life is good... I have no complaints

Went out for dinner yesterday, about half-way I realised that the road was jammed packed!!! Damn.. there was a Siti Nurhaliza's concert going on. This also happened last week. As I went out for supper at my regular place, there were so many indonesians around. At first I thought it was an invasion. Hundreds and hundreds of indonesians flocking the streets. Then I realize there was a "Shiela On 7" concert. Hmm.. figures

This is the harzards living on the most happening place in melacca. I'm at the heart of things and I didn't even know it. Maybe I'm just too detached from the outside world. Or just maybe I need a companion to go to this kind of stuff.

Lately I've noticed that I'm singing to myself alot. A habit i picked up from the cute uncle in Sabah. He is quite a whistler. While I just hummed. And this happens especially when I'm really stressed. Maybe my brain is trying release some of it's stress. Anyhow, it's quite theraputic and even when under a heavy workload, I can just smile and sing. (Or maybe I'm just going Cockoo).

Just came back from KL doing some shopping. Bought myself a nice external HDD with 120GB of storage. Now my ultimate PC is nearly done. I have a DVD Combo drive, A Sound Blaster Live card, an LCD Screen Monitor. An Altec Lansing speakers. A HP 2550 color laser printer. Dual Pentium 4 processor. 2GB of DDR RAM. 80GB + 40GB of Internal Storage.

This weekend I'm gonna convert of the room in my house as a Studyroom. Put some air-conditioning. A nice cupboard. (Note to myself, IKEA perhaps). Paint it with a nice lavender tint. (Or maybe wild a shagadelic austin powers chroma.. nahhhh!!). I've got this cool picture frame is made from LCD panel which changes pictures according to the temperature of the room that fits perfecly there. (basically it's just at old stripped down laptop that changes pictures to your likings). The ultimate yuppie's accesories.. just like the Bill Gates' house.

Bosan + benci + boring

Ari ni, lover I called lagi... dah dekat 3 - 4 kali ari ni. dah malas nak angkat. Bukan apa, tak suka dengan perangai asyik dok call sepanjang ari. Nak buat kerja pon tak senang. Tak cukup dengan tu, sambung lagi pulak kat Internet ngan YM + IRC. Pastu tambah ngan SMS lagie. Kalu dok dekat tak pe la jugak. Nie dah le jauh.. kalu borak berjam2. Last2 ujung bulan, mintak kita bayarkan bill telepon + handphone dia. Banyakkk cantekk!!! Macam ler kita chop duit. orang pun ada kerja lain nak buat.. takkan asyik nak layan dia je. Kerja I kat opis tu berlambak2 lagi tak siap.

Skali skala boleh la layan. Nie dah banyak kali dah naik tocang plak. Sorri lah dear, I need to teach you a lesson. Ni bukan caranya bercinta.. dan tak bermakna I tak sayang you. Tapi you kena la respect other ppl privacy. occay!!!

Bila I buat camni.. tahu la pulak nak marah2. Pandai pulak kata "You dah tak sayang I ke?". "Pls jangan tinggalkan I.. I beg of you". "You dah jumpa org lain ke ?".
Kang I buat betul2 kang baru tau.

- Sedutan dari sebuah drama swasta kat TV -

Kekadang ada org ada tak paham dengan konsep cinta dan kasih sayang. Bagi mereka, cinta perlu sentiasa bersama, sex and perhatian. Tapi bercinta dalam erti kata yang sebenarnya bagi saya adalah sikap toleransi, memahami jiwa dan hormat menghormati antara satu sama lain. Walaupun berjauhan dan jarang berkomunikasi, tapi hati tetap senang kerana mereka ini tahu yang hati ini ada yang sayang.

Renungilah...

Tuesday... Trapt !

So many people expect so much from me. And sometimes I don't think I can fullfill all of these expectations. Everyday felt like a struggle and an invisible wire is choking me little by little.. slowly squeezing air out of my lungs.
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9.00 AM:-
My boss wants me to get a colour laser printer... pronto! And amongst the hassle of shuffling through the quotations, other half messaged and wants me to do errands for him. But before I could reply, a collegue came-by and ask to burn some song for a company event. So I sat down and selected the songs to burn.

10.00 AM
Other half message again.. msg "WHY DONT YOU REPLY.. THIS IS URGENT!". As I was about to message him, my other collegue dropped by and asked me to do a whole brochure for a company event. After jotting down what is needed.. I start to do design for the layout.

11.00 AM
Then my boss yelled coz he havent got the quotations yet... "where is the f*ckin quotation". So I'd started with the quotations and literally yelled my vendor to get it ready in time. Run to the fax machine and wait...along the way had a quick smoke.

12.00 AM
Suddenly the otherhalf msg again.. "Why you don't reply.. u don't love me anymore?". As I was about to reply.. Collegue came and ask "Is my CD ready ?". I went back to the office and choose the songs and started burning.

1.00 PM
Another collegue came and ask "When can I get the brochures ready". So I sat down a did the brochures. Then, Boss called again, "Better get the quotation ready by this afternoon.". So I ran to the fax machine to get the last of the quotation. Ran back to the office and upon arriving at the office, wait for the CD to finish burning and packed it to be sent to my collegue's place. By that time it's already lunchtime.

2.00 PM
Had a quick lunch and ran back to the office. A trainee was waiting and wanted to use my computer to print some stuff. While waiting for the printing to finish called-up BF, unfortunately he had closed his HP...merajuk la tu. Opened up PC and check if there is any messaged from my vendor. Found BF's e-mail, all the fuss was about he wants to borrow money from my bank account. Ok.. sent & replied.

3.00 PM
Compiled all the quotation and sent it to my boss's desk. ran back to office.. BF called says sorry. Ok.. fine. sat down and starts doing the brochures. Ran out of ideas. Typed whatever I could managed.

4.00 PM
Vendor called to confirm. Boss already left for Terengganu without any confirmation. Had to wait until he gets back. Met the sports coodinator and lied to him that I can't go to the Track and Field event today. I'm in Shot Putt Training. Finish whatever I can do with the brochures and prints.

5.00 PM
Prepare to go back home but then I felt really tired thus I had a quick nap.

7.00 PM
Woke up.. rejuvinated. But all too late at the office. Drive back home. Had a shower and a quick look at the TV

8.00 PM
Drive out for dinner. Ate at the usual place (alone). Stopped at the Petrol station, get my car checked. Add fuel. Buy some chocolates. Drove back to the office.

9.00 PM
Arrive at the office. otherhalf msg, wants to have a webcam session with him (and the whole family, father / sister / cousins). Afterwards, burn some CD for him.

10.00 PM
Still burning CD...

11.00 PM
Went online and update website, do some programming. Clean my color printer. Korek idung.. bla bla bla.

12.00 PM
CD still burning. Watch some music & movie video clip online.

1.00 AM
Pack my stuff and went back home.

2.00 AM
zzZZZzzzz....



- Oh hell.. some ppl thinks I'm doing nothing at the office and some even wants me to put more attention to what I do. (yeah rite...)

P/S: Last night I found out my handphone rosak. Just after I've topped it up. Just my luck.

Sunday Ramblings....

Since my trip to Sabah.. nothing much has happened. Work as usual. Life is slow in the heart of Melacca.... eat, sleep, work.

As I was browsing the internet the other day, I had read an astonishing story posted in someone's blog. The fact is, it was my story which I had written 4 years back. I had totally forgotten about it. But someone didn't. It made my heart glow with warmth because it was my 1st effort to be a writer. Although nobody knew me, my stories would be the legacy to my existance.

I was young back then.. and foolish.. foolish enough to get myself into a lot of mishaps. But I had recorded those mishaps and posted a few of my stories online. An now, when I see back what I have done.. I had expected regrets. But instead, I felt proud.. because I had endured the experiences and survived. That made the difference.

To the blog writer who had re-posted my story online. Thank you for keeping my stories alive online and who knows, even after I'm gone, the stories would still be there to enlighten the lives of chubbies around us.

Huggs

Sabah Trip

A nice cute uncle I met on my recent trip to Sabah. Among the places that I went was The Tenom Coffee Factory, The Sabah Agriculture Park and a few other places around Keningau.

Sabah Trip 2004

Just came back from Sabah. I had a very lovely time there. Met some old friends and made some new friends too.

A million thanks to Chubmashimaro for being the best tourguide there is.