Malas.... segala...malas

Ari ni malas nak buat apa2... maklum lah dah cuti. Lepak kat umah adie jap... baiki komputer dia kena virus. Then gi dobi baju... ader la dekat 3 - 4 kilo. Pastu mengadap DVD kat umah.. sempat la pinjam citer CSI Complete Season 1 ngan Abg Josie.

Abu ader dtg melaka, lepak la ngan dia gi tengok MITC consumer fair. Beli kasut murah RM 30 je. Beli begpack.

Ajak Abu pegi Wisma Persekutuan gi buat passport. Kopak lagi duit RM 300. Pegi bank nak settle credit card. Bla.. bla bla.. bayar bill.. bla bla bla.. cuci mata.

Ari ni tak der idea sangat nak buat. Singgah opis kejap mengadap apa2 yang patut. Lampu kat my private room buat hal.. hmm.. nak kena report kat maintenance. Macam biasa.. abg maintenance lembab buat keja.

Update beberapa issue kat website. Server sumer jalan ok. Pegi survey handphone kat Mahkota Parade. Saja cuci mata.. sementara tunggu Nokia 1 Megapixel terbaru sampai. Ingat nak tengok wayang.. tapi citer macam tak best jer.

Komputer kat rumah kena virus Win32/Hi-Drag. Sesowaiii.. update antivirus dan clean virus. Hmm.. kalu upgrade PC nie pon best gak.. tapi aper lagi nak taruk ? Install Apache /MySQL/ PHP skali.. senang nak develop module untuk mychub kat umah. Ingat nak network kan rumah.. tapi hub boss pinjam plak. Iskk..

My mind goes blank!. Abg Din telepon.. nak pinjam duit RM 2000. Entah apa projek skim cepat kaya dia nak masuk tuh.. Isk tak serik2. Malas nak layan.. so kelentong kat dia kata nak pakai duit bulan ni nak downpayment kereta baru. Heheheh

Besok nak gi KL jap.. nak simpan kereta kat rumah Tija & Shireen. Maybe nak belek komputer Shireen tengok apa2 program bagus boleh copy. Still bertahun-tahun asyik dok pakai Power Builder nak buat programming.. Iskk tak power pon.

Anak senator Gan Boon Leong datang jumpa, ajak tolong jadi secretariat untuk pertandingan angkat-berat kebangsaan kat melaka. Hmm.. best jugak. Dapat jadi locker room boy bon jadi ler.. So aku tolong la promo skali. Hampeh.. persatuan angkat berat malaysia tak der website. Nanti aku kenen kat senator buatkan website untuk dia.

Coach rugby aku ajak gi Bangkok. Ok jugak.. leh tengok team kat sana main camana. Dah lama aku tak main.. bole lagi ke? Team old-boys pon lagi banyak menketedarah dari turun padang.. sumer dah jadi boroi-boroi belaka. 5 minit main.. pastu 1 jam lepak tepi padang isap rokok.

Semalam krem molot. Silap tido kot.. atau gigi problem. Nak gi klinik gigi nie phobia sikit. Doktor dah berpuluh kali suruh cabut gigi geraham. Tak moh la.. kang hilang seri plak.. ahax.

N/B:
1) buat research pasal DBpear:: function.
2) buat research pasal Linux - Smoothwall terbaru
3) buat research pasal OpenBiblio / Koha / phpMyLibrary

Holiday at last...

Today is the start of my 1 month sabatical leave. During last week I was frantically doing a lot of programming. Apart of a few new modules for MyChub, I'm also doing a database application. Working with 2 sets of different language, VB & PHP is very tiring.. mentally of course. My mind kept going back and forth to do 2 things at once. Plus, the pressure and dateline... No sweat for a specialist like me.. LOL


On a company dinner, I've won the grand prize lucky draw - a diamond & gold bracelet worth RM 500. This is the 1st time I won anything expensive. I'm keeping this for a special someone.. hehehe.

One suprising note, I've got my google check in, so that's an extra bonus this month.

During the weekend, I went to MITC coz there is a Trade Show. Found a booth that sells some cool XXXL T-shirt at only RM 10. Bought a couple of "dual" shirts which can be worn inside and out, 2 shirt for the price of one. Very nice...

Also saw SidiBear and his chubby wife at the trade show, later we all went to Big Bro Josie's house to see his new born baby. Little Fiedel Castro. Hahha.. so cute lah . Luckily, the raya spirit was still in the air. (and a few raya kuih) Also saw little bro Juan.. he has gotten slimmer.. uwaahh!!.. i wish he stayed chub.. coz he looks better that way. Dato' and Datin was also around... luckily they were busy with the baby and let us talk in peace.

Post Raya Work & More Work

Well.. i finally got the database working. Now idling around with nothing to do. Got one more week before my long holiday and I need to finish off whatever I need to do before that. Somehow or rather I'm not in the zest to do anything today.

Went back home and cook for lunch. Curry chicken, some prawns and a bit of rice. Filling but I think i added in too much oil and grease. Now bloated and kinda lazy. Hauled myself back to the office for more idle stuff and killing time until my next paycheck arrives.

Did a little bit of research on the latest java programming development. I can do a lot with Java but PHP is the "in-thing" nowadays. Not many hosting supports java and those that do cost a hefty sum. Need an idea on how to generate a search module for mychub. But I'll put that on hold until next week, when a new team of web developers volunteer comes in.

Dabbled abit with the Xeon server and updated some patches. Did a bit of hack on the 2003 terminal server. I hate windows.. but my vendor swears that thats the way to go. If I'd go my way, I would change it to linux and stick to it. Updated my personal Blade Red Hat server to the latest patch and upgraded the webmin module to version 1.70.

Then read some online new at tomshardware.com. Nothing much to catch there, a new article on how to make a cheap XGA projector. Maybe I would try one of those.. have a couple of old laptops that needs to be thrown away. Salvage the LCD screen and hook it up to a projector.

Tinkered abit with MsSQL 8, personally I prefer Oracle 9i better. No comprimise! Whatever MS puts under the hood just makes the server crawls. The microsoft way... hehehe.

So that's all for today... maybe tomorrow I have more exciting stuff to write.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Raya tahun ni tak berapa meriah. Maklom la.. raya ke-4 dah kena kerja balik. Adoii malasnyer... Aku ada satu projek belom siap lagi ni... Buat Database application. Sengaja aku lengah2 sampai last minit. Mana ler tahu.. kot kot ada idea canggih datang time-time last minit nie.

Pagi raya pertama aku pegi beraya kat rumah Adie (Bleubar) - sempat la makan ala kadar. SMS Riez, akak dia sakit masuk hospital. So kensel gi rumah riez. Then pegi rumah Kapitan - makan lagie. Pastu ajak kapitan pegi rumah Imran - perut dah kembong tak leh nak makan lagi. Lekat kat rumah imran dekat 2 jam.. gara-gara nak tunggu Suhaili datang. Bila suhaili sampai, then ramai-ramai gi rumah Abg Mokhtar. Borak-borak sampai la maghrib. Dah gerak nak balik.. alih-alih dapat idea nak gi Muar plak. So call la Hardchub. Nasib baik Hard ada kat umah. Kap macam biasa bawak kereta sesat sampai Sg Mati nak masuk Serom. Sampai umah hard makan lagie. Pastu hard ajak gi beraya rumah Bigmalay (Biggie).. terus konvoi gi rumah biggie. Borak lagi sampai la kul 12 mlm.

Lepas hantar sumer balik, sampai rumah dah dekat 3 pagi. Letih giler.. terus tido.

Besoknya bangun tido kul 11 pagi. Terus masuk opis... ingat nak siapkan database.. idea tarak. Buat itu ini.. check e-mail bla bla bla.. dah kul 11 malam. Aiseh.. cepatnya masa berlalu. Balik rumah terus makan dan tido. Then bangun kul 9 pagi.. siap apa yang patut.. then hantar Jesnita balik KL. kat highway plak jem.. nak balik singgah kat R&R.. nasi habis.. terpaksa la aku makan bubur nasi je nak alas perut sementara nak sampai rumah.

Atas highway baru aku perasan minyak dah nak habis. Dalam wallet tinggal seringgit je. Lupa nak cucuk duit kat ATM. Singgah kat Seremban .. ATM tergendala sebentar. Ok tak pe.. singgah kat Restoran Jejantas Ayer Keroh.. sama jugak.. ATM tergendala. Aiseh.. minyak dah sampai menyala E. Gamble je la.. pecut sampai jugak kat rumah. Sempat plak singgah kat opis kejap.. uiks.. aku ada sehari lagi dateline untuk database ni.. tak per tangguh lagi. Masih ada masa...

Kepala aku dah pening.. besok harapnya idea datang mencurah-curah untuk database project ni. Sementara tu.. copy masuk thumbdrive. Kot kat umah nanti aku terasa nak buat. Maybe lepas tengok DVD citer "The Incredibles". Aku ada semangat sket nak buat. Tuh ler.. aku sumpah seranah boss baru ni.. kedekut nak mampoz. Orang suruh bayor RM 4000 untuk database yang dah siap tak nak.. dok suruh aku buat free free. Hmm.. jawabnya aku buat cincai je la.. jangan marah plak kalu tak ikut spec. Aku pakai Access je.. padan muka ko. Kalu nak version pakai Oracle.. bayor la. Pueh hati.

Of Birthdays and Babes....

Yeay! got an early B'day present from Abu_Chub today... a spanking new Nokia 6600 handphone. Always wanted that phone coz of the superb camera feature. And it's chub too... shucks! how did you ever guessed that I like chubby handphones Abu ? Thank you.. thank you.. thank you... thank you!!!

Although I miss my Nokia 2300 with the radio function. Nonetheless, beggar can't be choosers.

Now I can play with GPRS MMS function and surf the web via WAP. I read somewhere that you can actually control linux server via your phone. So thats what I'm gonna try out. Makes my life a whole lot easier. Been adding in a lot of software into it too. One nifty app i found is a mosquito repellent software, where the phone can actually send out a high pitched sound and it's supposed to deter any blood sucking mosquitos. Nifty huh !!!

Other than that, I've been taking candid pictures like crazie. Look at the quality of that...


Anyway, I'm still fiddling with the video function as the default app only allows you to record abt 10 sec. Just downloaded the philips cam pro app, the quality is good. But it sometimes hangs.

Anyway, i quite happy with my new fangled gadgets. Until I get one of those Nokia 7610.. *hint* *hint*

Btw, a girl I knew from her sister who works at my office, suddenly asked me out for buka puasa at her house. I guess she fancies me.. or does the sister ?? Hmm.. there maybe hope yet. I wouldn't get all my eggs into one basket though. I think meet the parents thing for buka puasa is a bad start for a relationship.

That reminds me of a new movie coming out called "Hitch - The Cure for The Common Man", starring 2 of my fav actor, Will Smith & Kevin James (Of The King of Queens Sitcom). The last part of the scene which shows Kevin James kissing Will Smith is hillarious. Can't wait to see that...

A Pleasant Surprise....

What seems like a crappy weekend, turns out the opposite. Due to a certain individual set out on a vendetta against me and mychub. Spreading my blog into the yahoo groups, and trying to tarnish my reputation. I got a lot of heavy traffic lately. It raises some eyebrows definately and not to mention ruffled a few feathers.

But nothing could beat the suprise cheque from Google Inc. My 1st payment from the Google ads in my blogger. Thanks to the adsense program I've now got a steady income around 100 US Dollar a month. That translates into RM 380. Which is easy money considering that I didn't write much in here.

Whatever the vicious plan set upon me backfired. I'm a couple of hundred dollars richer.. so should I be depressed and afraid like the title says ? hell yeah.

Moral of the story :: Hiding under the veil of anonymity of Yahoo would not do you any good. I've tracked the culprits's IP : 219.93.174.xxx (wan2mambo / men4menchub / amir20041). And already asked Yahoo! to give me the identity of this user. Harassment is still a crime... may it be online or offline.

UPDATE:
Yahoo have complied with our complaints and the culprit Yahoo group (mychaser2003) have been removed permanently. Not only that, we also got a tip from Yahoo of who is the culprit!! Yes... we gotcha !!

My 2 cents...

A few weeks ago, moks was asked to have a meeting with the Bigboyz (Mike Kang, Mostapa, Munno & BigBear). Later, Basketball joined us, while Bob Sani of BLEUbar as the inter-mediator.

The whole reason for the meeting was to organize "The Big Party". The one party that is said to unite the whole Chub & Chaser Community. Organized by Bigboyz, Venue provided by BLUEbar.

Moks however was quite reluctant. As the old saying goes, once bitten twice shy. I don't want to open the closet here, but after what they had done to mychub was an utter betrayal. I don't hold grudges, but I have learnt my lesson well not to trust Bigboyz, esp with events involving money.

After the MyChub Annual Dinner 2000. Mike & Pa took almost 1/2 of the mychub members with him and created bigboyz, along with the left over money from the MyChub Annual Dinner 2000. There weren't a single cent left and me and abu had to strugle and built mychub from scratch.

There were few symphathetic who knew the whole story but even they could do nothing. Some were scared, more don't even care.

Now we have re-buit mychub to what it is today.

And now they dare to ask MyChub to join them back. While they organize and reapt the profit. While Bleubar gets his percentage from the collection money. MyChub gets nothing... just a small logo on the flyers saying we supported the event. How pityful is that...

Thanks, but NO THANKS... I'm not going to be your propaganda machine anymore. You reap the profit and we'll get the blame.

Let people say that I'm a party pooper. Let people say that I don't contribute to the betterment of the Chub & Chaser community. But I will not let mychub be used for anybody's personal gain.
So I'm staying as far away as possible from these kniving people.

MyChub has been a pioneer & innovator for the chub & chaser community. We were the one that proposed the idea of a the local / state minor club by the name of MyChub Rep.

Back then, nobody dared, many even laughed and ridiculed at the idea. But now, look how far we have achieved (and being deceived).

For the Northern States, there now NCC. Our mychub rep aalimin becomes the head of NCC. But now, they don't even acknowledge that they are part of mychub. And the galleries are full of Bigboyz people.

For the southern states there is JBChub under Mallchub & ZainJB. We hope that it would not be like NCC. But it too had it's rough times. When mychub initially had it's gatherings under Maori27, Bigboyz had done their part in nearly wrecking JBchub.

Most of the poeple don't know and don't care about all these. But for the sake of MyChub... I still know and I still care...

UPDATE:
This blog post has been mis-edited and spread like wildfire via e-mail according to the whims of certain groups or individuals. Oh well.. it's shows the power of blogging and it sure ruffled some feathers. GOOD!! Power to the people I'd say !

Penang Road Trip... 2004 and Merdeka Day!!!

Among all suprises.. Abu_Chub came to Melacca to visit me. In my down mood, a familiar face is a good thing to see. He was on his way back to Penang and wanted to see if I wanted to join him. So I took a whole week off and travel to Penang. It was much of the needed relief that I was looking for.

We planned to go to Aalimin's & Usman's Birthday party on the 4th, but both of us does not have adequate holidays left, thus we try to make it up by showing there a little earlier.

(Standing : Zaif, Moks, Usman)
(Sitting : Aalimin, Legolas_the_elf)
TQ to all NCC members (esp cutie Bob) for the great hospitality.

And Congratulation to Aalimin & Usman for their new CC !!.

Along the highway, stopped at the Sg. Perak to buy a supply of Tongkat Ali. Never believed in the stuff until i tried it. It a Miracle !!!

On the 31st we headed back to Johore. A bit of bad news, abu's motocycle had been stolen. Spent the whole merdeka celebration at Pantai Lido around Danga Bay watching the fireworks display. It was Awsome!! but the traffic was realy bad. Finally went back to KT really exhausted. On the 1st, went to JB to look around for a car for abu, finally ordered a Proton Gen2. But it will take around 2 months to get it. So abu.. hang on there, it's just a minor set back.

Bro Josie had a cute baby boy. Congrats bro !!! (Reminder: get a gift for the baby)

And Abg Mokhtar stopped by my office for a visit today.. it's been ages since I last saw him. Suprise.. suprise !!!

Fever and itch..

I'm not feeling well today. It's not yet a full blown fever. But it's coming soon. I can feel it in me bones. The un-easyness, the restlessness. A pain on the neck. All symtoms of a coming fever. But yet I refuse to do anything about it. I'm just one of those naturalist... i don't believe in drugs or anything that's related to drugs to cure me. In fact, the body should heal naturally over time, it will then be strong enough to fight any sort of illness in the future.

Our world world is full of chemicals. i despies insect repellent sprays and other toxicity that is being dump into our atmosphere. What I need is a good long vacation. Okay.. that's what I'll do. I'll take a week's break and maybe try to detoxify myself... sun, sea and sand.. here i come..!! meanwhile I need to lay in bed a few hours and let my aching body rest a bit.

Before that.....

Finally, I managed to rummage and sorted all the 3000 data within record time. Had a presentation meeting at 4.00 and I finished the report printout at 3.45. *Pheww!* a close call.
With trembling fingers I pushed the print button and it's all done.

The rest of the afternoon was spent sleeping in the office. Yes.. I have one of the luxuries of having my own office with a small bedroom which I sometimes takes a nap there... a small corner with a comfy bed and a cozy pillow. Felt heavenly for a while.... zzZZZzzzzz... zzZZZzzzz

Car Repair and some bitches at work...

Had changed the 2 rear tyres of my car. Also changed the both left chambers. Moved the front tyres to the back and added the new one in place. In total, it cost me RM 310.

Came to work today and found out the Bitch had taken over my project. So fine, I will give her a hard time. The only reason we took her in was to help me handle last years data backlog. And now she persuaded the boss that I should handle last year data while she handles this year's data. Sounds fine.. except that last year.. we had 3000 entries to process while this year.. everything is automated (courtesy of my hardwork). So all she had to do was a couple of clicks. While i had to rummage through 3000 of data. Who does she thinks she is ?

Indecisive

Definition:

[adj] not definitely settling something; "a long and indecisive war"
[adj] characterized by lack of decision and firmness; "an indecisive manager brought the enterprise to a standstill"
[adj] not clearly defined; "indecisive boundaries running through mountains"
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That was one term used by a friend of mine to describe the whole me. Maybe I am that way.. but what if I'm not ? Need to ponder more on that...

Well nothing much to do in the office lately. I've been keeping myself busy reading some sci-fi e-books I've down off the net. I've been facinated with Isaac Asimov since I was a teenager. With the release of the movie "I,Robot". It struck me to re-read his books, particularly regarding The Foundation Series. I've finished "The Prelude to Foundation". Now going to "Forward the Foundation".

(Note to myself: Find Arthur C. Clarke - Rendezvous with Rama)

JB Gatherings

Well.. the weekends were spent going to the JBchub gathering in Johore. Actually it was not planned. I called Abu_Chub and he was in Batu Pahat. So after work I drove to Batu Pahat to pick-up Abu at the Garden Hotel and off we went to JB.

Did some seight seeing at the JB maze. Then off we went to dinner with ZainJB and the gang near the ProJet station somewhere around Angsana. There were a few new faces and well the old faces around. Well.. it was like a pre-gath, discussing about what to wear, things to bring and things to do and as such. Later Abahmoden (mallchub), joined us for a late supper. Around 1 am, we had to excused ourselves coz we need to drive for another 2 hours to Kota Tinggi. Although we can get a hotel in JB and starts the travel with the gang in the morning. But we promised to get some stuff ready for them and it's all in Kota Tinggi.

I slept at some part of the journey and the road was so deserted and lonely, there were no gas station around and after drinking so much (... like 3 glasses of Milo). I had to pee a few times and the only option was the road side. Desperate times requires desperate measures!!! Felt like a dog marking my territory.. *piisshhhhh*

Reached Kota Tinggi at abt 4 am. Went about doing my stuff.. preparing the souveniers while Abu slept soundly. Finished at abt 6.00 am. Slept abt 4 hours and woke at 9.00 am. Had a quick bath and then off to the local town for a cake and some wrappings. (... had to improvised a bit). then off we drove to Bandar Penawar to meet the rest of the gang. Fortunately, when we reach there there were about to have breakfast. So we joined them.

After breakfast, our convoi of 2 cars and 1 SUV packed with chubs started it's journey to La'Cemara Resort in Desaru. Upon reaching there, we packed our stuff. But the guard made a fuss that since we are not hotel visitors, we had to park outside. so much for Redtape! Anyway, with the infamous power of persuasion of Mallchub, we got to park the cars inside. (... there weren't so many cars in the first place). It was nearly deserted.. and on Sunday too.

There were we, BennyJB, the cute singaporean couple, zainJB, Nottichub, Mallchub, Abu_Chub, Pismitt and of course me. We had the whole beach to ourselves. The weather was great... not too hot.. not to cold. It was a great splashing time. During half-time, we went to shore and had some drinks and cut the cake. Tender and moist.

Afterwards, we went for a second round of sand and sea water. Right till afternoon.. we pack our stuff and head to Kota Tinggi for a delicious Nasi Ayam. Then off to Kota Tinggi Waterfalls for more splashing time. The water this time was cold and it had started raining. So it was gushing.. really fantastic.

We came out of the waterfalls at 6.00 pm and hungry again. So we had one last a nice dinner after we all departed to our own destination.

Of kareoke, sing along, some butt kicking and an old maid...

There was a kareoke singing contest downstairs (inter-department).. After crooning to a few tunes I went up to my own office to have some peace and quiet. My singing partner was an indian girl who sang like a bullet train giving speed singing a whole new meaning. The song was "Sandarkan pada kenangan" - Jamal Abdillah & Siti Sarah. It's been ages since I sang, used to be singing with the university band (like those kenduri kawin ones) in my studying days. Not yet AF material... though. Nope, I was not contesting.. merely like a guest artiste.. singing for the opening act, just to make the contestants feel at ease.

Been like 2 weeks since I had time to write anything in this blog. Time sure flies when u have tons of work.

Btw, I got a standing ovation over my debut drama. After some make-up and a wig, even I couldn't recognize myself. It was a lot of hard work.. but it was all worth it when my big boss came to me and congratulated me himself for the exceptional performance.

A few days after that, I got news that he had resigned. Also another collegue of mine had his contract terminated. Apparently, one of the board members for the company I work for, does not like him that much. It's a sad thing to see friend leaving the company since we are like a very tight knit community. I'm very sensitive about matters like this and cannot resist the melancolic feeling. One of the chief executive make a rude remark that I might be next. Well.. you little twat, we'll just see whose butt gonna be kicked next. Hehehehe.

Last weekend, the whole server cluster went down. Both Linux and Windows. I suspect it's either a virus or a DDOS attack. Wasted a whole weekend trying to fix the problem. I think I've made some sort of new record. I've rebuilt a whole new cluster of Windows 'o2/'03 and Redhat Linux in just under 3 hours (.. from scratch!!!).

Then I got an additional holiday on monday, so I drove to KL and went on a shopping spree. Having spent nearly RM 4000 on CD-Writers, Pen Drive, External HDD Casing, 120GB HDD, Wacom Pad, Digital Camcoder, etc... etc. It felt good spending but I need to put a stop to this habit coz it's not good for my wallet.

Being a bachelor is no fun either, especially when you are living alone. The house is too big on my own and I need a maid to do all the cleaning. I've tried to get a maid for myself but I live too far and no makciks wants to do it. Manmaid is out of the question, as if there is such a service in good o'le Malaysia. For now, I'll just have to clean everything by myself. Now.. where is that broomstick of mine.*chuckle*

Life in Show Business and Pink Eye !

Been really busy with work that I rarely have time to write here. To tell you the truth, I've just landed myself a small part in a local "broadway" style drama. Those historic themed B-rated stuff.. "Sumpah Orang Minyak".  Part stuntman.. part actor.. (i have only 2 lines.. hik! but a whole lot of fighting scene). Been rehearsing for it for the past 2 weeks.. opening end of this week. Wish me luck.
 
The BITCH had stopped pestering me since I relieved her of her duties. I would rather work my ass off than having a cunt assistant who thinks she is boss. She can go and wipe her fuckin pussy somewhere else.
 
Other than that, I've been keeping myself busy with "Queer as Folks" TV series. I'm an avid collector of the series which is very hard to find in Malaysia. Finally, I have the whole season 1 until 4 of the US version. Now I'm collecting the UK version. So everyday after work, I just lay and watch it. Seeing gays and lesbians lamenting their life and lust.
 
Last week was terrible. I got my left eye all swollen up. The doctor said it was a minor eye infection... a case of the "pink eye". But ever since I got beaten up (bashed) in a fight a few years back, my left eye would give me trouble once a while. Hurts like hell... nevertheless, it's residing so I can see better and I looked better too.. mind the puffyness.
 
I also got myself an original Wolfhampton Wanderers jersey bought from UK. It cost a bundle (try.. 40 pounds times 7 = MYR 280). But it's worth every cent. I'm not a footie fan, but since I saw a chub wearing it, it looks good on him.. so go figure! Yeah.. I'm one of those guys who's a sucker for a chub with good fashion statement. What looks good on him.. must look good on me too. (what a lame excuse.. hehehe).
 
Talking about fashion, I also wore a new tie to work today. Plain silver looks good on a black shirt. I look like Brian Kenny from "QAF". Suave ! And for casual outfit, I bought a really white sandals which can be seen a mile away. Talking about making a fashion statement. Don't know why I've been conscious about what I wear lately. Being a slob all my life, maybe it's time to change and feel good about what I wear. Now.. what I need is a pair of those cool Black Levis or Ice Blue Lee Cooper jeans in my wardrobe. Next paycheck perhaps.
 
A reader of this blog said that my postings are shows that I'm stressed out. Well, maybe because only when I'm stressed that I bent my frustration on writing. It's my kind of therapeutic way for relieving some of my anger. I promise to write more happy stuff here. My life has lots more happy times and I should make time to share it here.
 
So nuff said.. till next time

Bad Hair Day...

Since yesterday I slept the whole day. Feeling letargic. Still woke up late.. did some frantic morning laundry and off to work.

During breakfast my staff gave me the silent treatment. Oh hell.. i'm not in the mood for early morning chat either. Whether he knew it or not, I don't like him as well. Yesterday he did a complete fuck-up of the administration system. and I had to bail him out. Gawd! how I wish I had a competent technician. Why do I have to cover his butt everytime he fucked up. Why didn't the big boss see all this ? He was there beside me.

Also went for a photo session yesterday for the corporate magazine. I look good, especially with the small ribbon on my coat. Everybody commented.. it's cute.

Looked in the mirror and noticed that I didn't put on any hair cream. I looked horrible today. Anyway, I'm too depressed to do anything. I hope the guys that made an appointment to meet me didn't come. Left my cell phone at home, not intentionally but i think it's justified. Not in the mood to meet anybody right now. (UPDATE: my secretary just cancelled the appointment.. horreyyy!!)

My car's road tax & insurance needs to be renewed. Another RM 700 down the drain. Pay for the car loan RM 500. That's RM 1200 in all. Plus I got a summon for illegal parking RM 50.

Got a meeting this afternoon, see which malaysian state I have to cover this year. I hope it's the southern part or Kelantan. Hate the food.. loved the people.

I need something to cheer me up. Bored! Lonely! Tired!

Women are just bitches ! (Literally...)

My boss assigned me a new helper. Supposedly to help me with my chores and stuff. At first I liked her. She was nice and sweet. We could get along well together. WELL AT FIRST. Working with her was fun initially as she was up to par with me on certain levels. Unfortunately, she couldn't do hard labour & technical maintenance (and can't out-do my nitwit nincom poop technician). Well.. i can see that she can do Oracle DB.

After a while, she began to show her true colours. Becoming a real bitch. The only reason she had helped me because she wants to suck-up to the big boss. She's even got the boss to pay her extra due to her work.

Nowadays, any task I'd given her must get a seal of approval from the big boss. the BITCH. I've never been calculative with her. Well now since she has shown her true color.. I think I will show her mine too.

Now lets see who's hard-headed ! I've always kept myself on a professional level. But you got urself the wrong guy to be intimidated with girl. I thought I've made peace with my Anti-Women side.. but now I've declared WAR !!!

Life is good... I have no complaints

Went out for dinner yesterday, about half-way I realised that the road was jammed packed!!! Damn.. there was a Siti Nurhaliza's concert going on. This also happened last week. As I went out for supper at my regular place, there were so many indonesians around. At first I thought it was an invasion. Hundreds and hundreds of indonesians flocking the streets. Then I realize there was a "Shiela On 7" concert. Hmm.. figures

This is the harzards living on the most happening place in melacca. I'm at the heart of things and I didn't even know it. Maybe I'm just too detached from the outside world. Or just maybe I need a companion to go to this kind of stuff.

Lately I've noticed that I'm singing to myself alot. A habit i picked up from the cute uncle in Sabah. He is quite a whistler. While I just hummed. And this happens especially when I'm really stressed. Maybe my brain is trying release some of it's stress. Anyhow, it's quite theraputic and even when under a heavy workload, I can just smile and sing. (Or maybe I'm just going Cockoo).

Just came back from KL doing some shopping. Bought myself a nice external HDD with 120GB of storage. Now my ultimate PC is nearly done. I have a DVD Combo drive, A Sound Blaster Live card, an LCD Screen Monitor. An Altec Lansing speakers. A HP 2550 color laser printer. Dual Pentium 4 processor. 2GB of DDR RAM. 80GB + 40GB of Internal Storage.

This weekend I'm gonna convert of the room in my house as a Studyroom. Put some air-conditioning. A nice cupboard. (Note to myself, IKEA perhaps). Paint it with a nice lavender tint. (Or maybe wild a shagadelic austin powers chroma.. nahhhh!!). I've got this cool picture frame is made from LCD panel which changes pictures according to the temperature of the room that fits perfecly there. (basically it's just at old stripped down laptop that changes pictures to your likings). The ultimate yuppie's accesories.. just like the Bill Gates' house.

Bosan + benci + boring

Ari ni, lover I called lagi... dah dekat 3 - 4 kali ari ni. dah malas nak angkat. Bukan apa, tak suka dengan perangai asyik dok call sepanjang ari. Nak buat kerja pon tak senang. Tak cukup dengan tu, sambung lagi pulak kat Internet ngan YM + IRC. Pastu tambah ngan SMS lagie. Kalu dok dekat tak pe la jugak. Nie dah le jauh.. kalu borak berjam2. Last2 ujung bulan, mintak kita bayarkan bill telepon + handphone dia. Banyakkk cantekk!!! Macam ler kita chop duit. orang pun ada kerja lain nak buat.. takkan asyik nak layan dia je. Kerja I kat opis tu berlambak2 lagi tak siap.

Skali skala boleh la layan. Nie dah banyak kali dah naik tocang plak. Sorri lah dear, I need to teach you a lesson. Ni bukan caranya bercinta.. dan tak bermakna I tak sayang you. Tapi you kena la respect other ppl privacy. occay!!!

Bila I buat camni.. tahu la pulak nak marah2. Pandai pulak kata "You dah tak sayang I ke?". "Pls jangan tinggalkan I.. I beg of you". "You dah jumpa org lain ke ?".
Kang I buat betul2 kang baru tau.

- Sedutan dari sebuah drama swasta kat TV -

Kekadang ada org ada tak paham dengan konsep cinta dan kasih sayang. Bagi mereka, cinta perlu sentiasa bersama, sex and perhatian. Tapi bercinta dalam erti kata yang sebenarnya bagi saya adalah sikap toleransi, memahami jiwa dan hormat menghormati antara satu sama lain. Walaupun berjauhan dan jarang berkomunikasi, tapi hati tetap senang kerana mereka ini tahu yang hati ini ada yang sayang.

Renungilah...

Tuesday... Trapt !

So many people expect so much from me. And sometimes I don't think I can fullfill all of these expectations. Everyday felt like a struggle and an invisible wire is choking me little by little.. slowly squeezing air out of my lungs.
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9.00 AM:-
My boss wants me to get a colour laser printer... pronto! And amongst the hassle of shuffling through the quotations, other half messaged and wants me to do errands for him. But before I could reply, a collegue came-by and ask to burn some song for a company event. So I sat down and selected the songs to burn.

10.00 AM
Other half message again.. msg "WHY DONT YOU REPLY.. THIS IS URGENT!". As I was about to message him, my other collegue dropped by and asked me to do a whole brochure for a company event. After jotting down what is needed.. I start to do design for the layout.

11.00 AM
Then my boss yelled coz he havent got the quotations yet... "where is the f*ckin quotation". So I'd started with the quotations and literally yelled my vendor to get it ready in time. Run to the fax machine and wait...along the way had a quick smoke.

12.00 AM
Suddenly the otherhalf msg again.. "Why you don't reply.. u don't love me anymore?". As I was about to reply.. Collegue came and ask "Is my CD ready ?". I went back to the office and choose the songs and started burning.

1.00 PM
Another collegue came and ask "When can I get the brochures ready". So I sat down a did the brochures. Then, Boss called again, "Better get the quotation ready by this afternoon.". So I ran to the fax machine to get the last of the quotation. Ran back to the office and upon arriving at the office, wait for the CD to finish burning and packed it to be sent to my collegue's place. By that time it's already lunchtime.

2.00 PM
Had a quick lunch and ran back to the office. A trainee was waiting and wanted to use my computer to print some stuff. While waiting for the printing to finish called-up BF, unfortunately he had closed his HP...merajuk la tu. Opened up PC and check if there is any messaged from my vendor. Found BF's e-mail, all the fuss was about he wants to borrow money from my bank account. Ok.. sent & replied.

3.00 PM
Compiled all the quotation and sent it to my boss's desk. ran back to office.. BF called says sorry. Ok.. fine. sat down and starts doing the brochures. Ran out of ideas. Typed whatever I could managed.

4.00 PM
Vendor called to confirm. Boss already left for Terengganu without any confirmation. Had to wait until he gets back. Met the sports coodinator and lied to him that I can't go to the Track and Field event today. I'm in Shot Putt Training. Finish whatever I can do with the brochures and prints.

5.00 PM
Prepare to go back home but then I felt really tired thus I had a quick nap.

7.00 PM
Woke up.. rejuvinated. But all too late at the office. Drive back home. Had a shower and a quick look at the TV

8.00 PM
Drive out for dinner. Ate at the usual place (alone). Stopped at the Petrol station, get my car checked. Add fuel. Buy some chocolates. Drove back to the office.

9.00 PM
Arrive at the office. otherhalf msg, wants to have a webcam session with him (and the whole family, father / sister / cousins). Afterwards, burn some CD for him.

10.00 PM
Still burning CD...

11.00 PM
Went online and update website, do some programming. Clean my color printer. Korek idung.. bla bla bla.

12.00 PM
CD still burning. Watch some music & movie video clip online.

1.00 AM
Pack my stuff and went back home.

2.00 AM
zzZZZzzzz....



- Oh hell.. some ppl thinks I'm doing nothing at the office and some even wants me to put more attention to what I do. (yeah rite...)

P/S: Last night I found out my handphone rosak. Just after I've topped it up. Just my luck.

Sunday Ramblings....

Since my trip to Sabah.. nothing much has happened. Work as usual. Life is slow in the heart of Melacca.... eat, sleep, work.

As I was browsing the internet the other day, I had read an astonishing story posted in someone's blog. The fact is, it was my story which I had written 4 years back. I had totally forgotten about it. But someone didn't. It made my heart glow with warmth because it was my 1st effort to be a writer. Although nobody knew me, my stories would be the legacy to my existance.

I was young back then.. and foolish.. foolish enough to get myself into a lot of mishaps. But I had recorded those mishaps and posted a few of my stories online. An now, when I see back what I have done.. I had expected regrets. But instead, I felt proud.. because I had endured the experiences and survived. That made the difference.

To the blog writer who had re-posted my story online. Thank you for keeping my stories alive online and who knows, even after I'm gone, the stories would still be there to enlighten the lives of chubbies around us.

Huggs

Sabah Trip

A nice cute uncle I met on my recent trip to Sabah. Among the places that I went was The Tenom Coffee Factory, The Sabah Agriculture Park and a few other places around Keningau.

Sabah Trip 2004

Just came back from Sabah. I had a very lovely time there. Met some old friends and made some new friends too.

A million thanks to Chubmashimaro for being the best tourguide there is.